# An Inquisition into the Validity of my Existence

- Author: Emmanuel Wanyama
- Published: 2023-09-07

- Tags: Identity, philosophy, self identity, Self-discovery, Writing
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A question that's invariably plagued my psyche, is an inquisition into the validity of my existence. I've had to share spaces with personalities colossally significant in comparison to my own, leaving me with no choice but to caution myself to watch the words I said, better yet, the ideas I shared, for fear of being ostracized.

The subtle but very present need to belong and the quest for validation from these personalities always left the most menial of conversations feeling like an attempt to decipher the Fibonacci sequence.

For what value was a lowly personality like mine going to add to these 'grand conversations' I momentarily had no place coddling. As obliged as I felt to indulge, the voice in my head invariably reminded me of the inconsequential nature of my opinions.

This led me down a path of self-exploration, introspection if you will, for the quest to be valid and adequately qualify the quantum nature of my existence was now my most intrinsic odyssey.

An understanding of what lay beneath the veneer of my seemingly unvalidated human experience was profoundly alleviating. The realization that beneath all I was witness to, lay a presence, a presence as divine as its inception. A presence I had no business having but for some reason unbeknownst to me, I, was the outcome of its inception and a recipient of its most valuable gift, life.

The idea that I, the creation of an ethereal creator, somehow got the privilege to indulge in its grand and magnificently inosculate creation was such a profoundly gratifying epiphany.

Consequently, in light of my most recent realization, I clearly had no place questioning the validity of my existence. I, however, was left with a profound appreciation of the privilege it is to live and partake in the momentarily ambiguous experience that is to live.